Beautiful Disaster

[Beautiful Disaster]

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[foreverexodus]

 Hello Again,

I just wanted to get this all out and put everything out the before I delete this blog. I feel everyone deserves a 100% clear explanation on this. I feel like a lot of misunderstood facts are going around and its making me rather uncomfortable to be completely honest. 

This is going to be rather long hopefully explains everything and all the questions you need. 

When I created this “online persona” it was never to hurt anyone. It was mainly for myself. I started this “online life” so to speak when I was younger, due to the fact I was a child that came home did homework and went to school. I never really had the life I wanted I was pretty sheltered up until I was 18. I never had a mother or a good female figure in my life besides my grandmother.

My mother was full of empty promises and lies and made me feel she cared about me, but in reality she didn’t. She didn’t care about me. I was always so afraid to become close to anyone in my life or any person simply because I was afraid of disappointment. My mother would say she’d visit and come home but she never did. She’d only leave me and my father with lies and lies and it hurt a lot.

I tried to be strong about it but I wasn’t. Then in school It wasn’t any better. I had friends that stabbed me in the back and couldn’t really give my full self to people because they’ve always ended up hurting me. So, one day years ago I created an online account but It wasn’t a fake one it was my own. Then my aunt found out about it and was very afraid I would give my life to strangers and she showed me something on “Dateline” of course It freaked me out so I ended up deciding to do a fake account instead and thats how it all started.

I ended up talking to people and getting to know people and I felt comfortable. I could tell people my problems without them judging me or making fun of me, because I couldn’t do that with the people around me. My family would only turn a blind eye or brush it off so life became stressful. 

I ended up developing a eating disorder do to all the stress I had with school, my home life and family issues and the one bright spot and happiness I had was online. It wasn’t that I hated myself or who I was I just hated everything that I was dealing with and I wanted an escape, and now looking back that wasn’t a smart Idea. 

Everyone has there escape and to be honest the internet was mine. I still had an everyday life like anyone. I had lots of friends and went out occasionally but still sheltered and not very happy.

So when I met friends online and told them about myself I felt better. I felt people cared and they didn’t give me hell or ignore me they actually cared about me. Things I was looking for in real life from family and friends that I never had.

So It was as if people cared about me a lot and I liked it, it made me happy and not as stressed as I was. I felt I could come home after a long day of studying and a long day of practice I could come home let my hair down and rant to the world and people would hear me and be there for me. So I became selfish in my own right. I would rant to people about my issues and I’d listen to theres.

I was selfish because everyone I met seemed to be 100% them and completely honest and for some reason I could never bring down the wall i build which was the fake accounts. Instead of letting it die down I allowed it to grow and grow. I want to make it clear that I never started being Korean that whole time started this online persona and you can go back and see. I only started saying I was Korean over a year ago when I met some friends from an app called Vine. 

At the time I was starting out Vine being myself and wasn’t planning on making any sort of KPOP vines till I met a few friends and I ended up lying about who I was again and using my account and changed things, because at the time I was planning on quitting the whole “faking” myself after I hurt a person that I cared about the most. Someone whom will never forgive me and I don’t blame them.

So instead of letting them in after I let the previous person know the truth I instantly put up a wall and instead of not thinking like I should have. I ended up putting up that same wall that hurt someone I cared about. I fucked up and I’m aware of that.

So I lied and said I was Korean..Kpop was the one thing that made me happy at time after I lost the person I cared for. So I lied and lied. I did care for everyone I spoke to and I really did share real things with people but it was all masked with a lie on who I was physically.

I did have moments where I wanted to tell the truth, but I was to ignorant and stuck in my own world to tell the truth. College was stressing me out, my friends with their lives was stressing me out and my own family was stressing me out.

Again the only real happiness I had was talking with these people. They shared their lives with me and I messed up by keeping mines hidden and a secret. I was just to afraid to let people in and instead of just being honest with people while still keeping a guard up I just kept lying.

Eventually they found out and I had every right to get the shit I got. I hurt people I truly cared about and they hated me and still do and they have every right to be. So after all that happened and I explained to them my issue some did for give me and other didn’t which I don’t blame.

After time I still didn’t delete those stupid accounts because I guess I was holding on to them thinking it wouldn’t get found out but… it did. Once again I lost people  I cared about and I fucked up.

You would think you’d give it up if you lost important people in your life but I didnt. I wanted to stop doing it but then my father passed away. The only person who did understand me and talking to my family about my father wasn’t easy at all. 

I couldn’t do it and still to this day I cant talk about losing my father. It really hurt losing him. Now I don’t have either parent my mother is still non existent and now I lost my father the one person who knew how not having a mother effected me.

So again I went back into depression and kept this online life going. I put all my feelings behind a wall again. I met people online and felt better about myself. So I met people and lied. I lied about who I was for the same reason I always had.

I didn’t ever want to be Korean and I honest don’t even know why I gave those lessons I was ignorant. Those apologies I gave weren’t  100% on what I meant. I didn’t do this for popularity I honestly could care less. I did this because I cared about people and I loved talking to people and helping them out.

I loved being someone people could come to about everything and not feel ashamed or shunned, because we all have that in our lives and I did most of it because I genuinely cared about people… even though I did I was also afraid to let my guard down. I always been afraid too.

I never had time to learn Korean because I was always busy with school, work and etc and I did those lessons because I thought I was helping but I wasn’t and again I’m ignorant for that. I shouldn’t have spoken on topics I didnt know. I only said things because I was trying to help… and yes I let things get out of control and yes I said and did things I shouldn’t have I look back now and I am ashamed of myself.

You don’t need to tell me what I did. I know. I am ashamed.

I apologize that I hurt all of you who looked up to me and came to me for anything. I should have be honest with you. I had no right to drag you into my web of lies. I had no right to have friends that would have had my back in all this mess. I had no right to hurt you at all.

You guys can’t hate me more then I hate myself in this moment. I fucked up big time because I genuinely cared about everyone and thing on this blog. I cared for everyone I met and encountered and I am thankful to those that took time to listen to me. 

I am so sorry for everything I ever put you through. You don’t deserve it. I guess this whole thing was a blessing to be honest. I always wanted to stop doing this but I didnt know how. It was just so easy to start but not so easy to stop.

There is nothing wrong with me.. the only thing wrong is I was afraid to be me. I was afraid to be vulnerable and 100% me… when actually all along I was myself only drowned in lies and bullshit.

So I am sorry again. I’ve deleted everything and I plan on deleting this blog. I want to start a new life and a new chapter where I am honest to everyone because everyone deserves the truth even if it hurts and is scary to do so.

I rather be honest 100% and get hurt then to lose friend and people I care about again. 

Again I’m sorry to everyone I hurt or insulted I never meant for that to happen and to every friend I made and lost.. I’m sorry to you as well. I never deserved you as a friend.

I just felt this needed to be said and I never told anyone the full reason behind my actions but a few people and now I am officially done. No worries this is the end. You have no Idea how good it feels to actually let this all go. You have no Idea how good it feels to tell the 100% truth instead of people thinking they know a damn thing about you and feeding people drama… especially people you trusted as well. 

I always claim I’m above a lot and I’m strong but I wasn’t really until deleting all those lies and now leaving you with THE TRUTH. It feels good and I’m honestly happy and feel so much better now. I know I can never mend those that i’ve broken and those I have hurt, just know I am genially sorry and I’m not sorry I got caught. I actually truly sorry, and its 100% okay If you never forgive me. I understand. Once again to everyone I effect and hurt I am sorry. 

[Beautiful Disaster]

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 Hello Again,

I just wanted to get this all out and put everything out the before I delete this blog. I feel everyone deserves a 100% clear explanation on this. I feel like a lot of misunderstood facts are going around and its making me rather uncomfortable to be completely honest. 

This is going to be rather long hopefully explains everything and all the questions you need. 

When I created this “online persona” it was never to hurt anyone. It was mainly for myself. I started this “online life” so to speak when I was younger, due to the fact I was a child that came home did homework and went to school. I never really had the life I wanted I was pretty sheltered up until I was 18. I never had a mother or a good female figure in my life besides my grandmother.

My mother was full of empty promises and lies and made me feel she cared about me, but in reality she didn’t. She didn’t care about me. I was always so afraid to become close to anyone in my life or any person simply because I was afraid of disappointment. My mother would say she’d visit and come home but she never did. She’d only leave me and my father with lies and lies and it hurt a lot.

I tried to be strong about it but I wasn’t. Then in school It wasn’t any better. I had friends that stabbed me in the back and couldn’t really give my full self to people because they’ve always ended up hurting me. So, one day years ago I created an online account but It wasn’t a fake one it was my own. Then my aunt found out about it and was very afraid I would give my life to strangers and she showed me something on “Dateline” of course It freaked me out so I ended up deciding to do a fake account instead and thats how it all started.

I ended up talking to people and getting to know people and I felt comfortable. I could tell people my problems without them judging me or making fun of me, because I couldn’t do that with the people around me. My family would only turn a blind eye or brush it off so life became stressful. 

I ended up developing a eating disorder do to all the stress I had with school, my home life and family issues and the one bright spot and happiness I had was online. It wasn’t that I hated myself or who I was I just hated everything that I was dealing with and I wanted an escape, and now looking back that wasn’t a smart Idea. 

Everyone has there escape and to be honest the internet was mine. I still had an everyday life like anyone. I had lots of friends and went out occasionally but still sheltered and not very happy.

So when I met friends online and told them about myself I felt better. I felt people cared and they didn’t give me hell or ignore me they actually cared about me. Things I was looking for in real life from family and friends that I never had.

So It was as if people cared about me a lot and I liked it, it made me happy and not as stressed as I was. I felt I could come home after a long day of studying and a long day of practice I could come home let my hair down and rant to the world and people would hear me and be there for me. So I became selfish in my own right. I would rant to people about my issues and I’d listen to theres.

I was selfish because everyone I met seemed to be 100% them and completely honest and for some reason I could never bring down the wall i build which was the fake accounts. Instead of letting it die down I allowed it to grow and grow. I want to make it clear that I never started being Korean that whole time started this online persona and you can go back and see. I only started saying I was Korean over a year ago when I met some friends from an app called Vine. 

At the time I was starting out Vine being myself and wasn’t planning on making any sort of KPOP vines till I met a few friends and I ended up lying about who I was again and using my account and changed things, because at the time I was planning on quitting the whole “faking” myself after I hurt a person that I cared about the most. Someone whom will never forgive me and I don’t blame them.

So instead of letting them in after I let the previous person know the truth I instantly put up a wall and instead of not thinking like I should have. I ended up putting up that same wall that hurt someone I cared about. I fucked up and I’m aware of that.

So I lied and said I was Korean..Kpop was the one thing that made me happy at time after I lost the person I cared for. So I lied and lied. I did care for everyone I spoke to and I really did share real things with people but it was all masked with a lie on who I was physically.

I did have moments where I wanted to tell the truth, but I was to ignorant and stuck in my own world to tell the truth. College was stressing me out, my friends with their lives was stressing me out and my own family was stressing me out.

Again the only real happiness I had was talking with these people. They shared their lives with me and I messed up by keeping mines hidden and a secret. I was just to afraid to let people in and instead of just being honest with people while still keeping a guard up I just kept lying.

Eventually they found out and I had every right to get the shit I got. I hurt people I truly cared about and they hated me and still do and they have every right to be. So after all that happened and I explained to them my issue some did for give me and other didn’t which I don’t blame.

After time I still didn’t delete those stupid accounts because I guess I was holding on to them thinking it wouldn’t get found out but… it did. Once again I lost people  I cared about and I fucked up.

You would think you’d give it up if you lost important people in your life but I didnt. I wanted to stop doing it but then my father passed away. The only person who did understand me and talking to my family about my father wasn’t easy at all. 

I couldn’t do it and still to this day I cant talk about losing my father. It really hurt losing him. Now I don’t have either parent my mother is still non existent and now I lost my father the one person who knew how not having a mother effected me.

So again I went back into depression and kept this online life going. I put all my feelings behind a wall again. I met people online and felt better about myself. So I met people and lied. I lied about who I was for the same reason I always had.

I didn’t ever want to be Korean and I honest don’t even know why I gave those lessons I was ignorant. Those apologies I gave weren’t  100% on what I meant. I didn’t do this for popularity I honestly could care less. I did this because I cared about people and I loved talking to people and helping them out.

I loved being someone people could come to about everything and not feel ashamed or shunned, because we all have that in our lives and I did most of it because I genuinely cared about people… even though I did I was also afraid to let my guard down. I always been afraid too.

I never had time to learn Korean because I was always busy with school, work and etc and I did those lessons because I thought I was helping but I wasn’t and again I’m ignorant for that. I shouldn’t have spoken on topics I didnt know. I only said things because I was trying to help… and yes I let things get out of control and yes I said and did things I shouldn’t have I look back now and I am ashamed of myself.

You don’t need to tell me what I did. I know. I am ashamed.

I apologize that I hurt all of you who looked up to me and came to me for anything. I should have be honest with you. I had no right to drag you into my web of lies. I had no right to have friends that would have had my back in all this mess. I had no right to hurt you at all.

You guys can’t hate me more then I hate myself in this moment. I fucked up big time because I genuinely cared about everyone and thing on this blog. I cared for everyone I met and encountered and I am thankful to those that took time to listen to me. 

I am so sorry for everything I ever put you through. You don’t deserve it. I guess this whole thing was a blessing to be honest. I always wanted to stop doing this but I didnt know how. It was just so easy to start but not so easy to stop.

There is nothing wrong with me.. the only thing wrong is I was afraid to be me. I was afraid to be vulnerable and 100% me… when actually all along I was myself only drowned in lies and bullshit.

So I am sorry again. I’ve deleted everything and I plan on deleting this blog. I want to start a new life and a new chapter where I am honest to everyone because everyone deserves the truth even if it hurts and is scary to do so.

I rather be honest 100% and get hurt then to lose friend and people I care about again. 

Again I’m sorry to everyone I hurt or insulted I never meant for that to happen and to every friend I made and lost.. I’m sorry to you as well. I never deserved you as a friend.

I just felt this needed to be said and I never told anyone the full reason behind my actions but a few people and now I am officially done. No worries this is the end. You have no Idea how good it feels to actually let this all go. You have no Idea how good it feels to tell the 100% truth instead of people thinking they know a damn thing about you and feeding people drama… especially people you trusted as well. 

I always claim I’m above a lot and I’m strong but I wasn’t really until deleting all those lies and now leaving you with THE TRUTH. It feels good and I’m honestly happy and feel so much better now. I know I can never mend those that i’ve broken and those I have hurt, just know I am genially sorry and I’m not sorry I got caught. I actually truly sorry, and its 100% okay If you never forgive me. I understand. Once again to everyone I effect and hurt I am sorry. 

[Beautiful Disaster]

[pinkmanjesse]

don’t feed a guy a sponge, bobby

[Beautiful Disaster]

[realcereal]

I keep falling in love with you in the summertime.

[Beautiful Disaster]

Dear Everyone,

[foreverexodus]

I wanted to wait a day or so to give a better apology. I wanted to collect my thoughts and try and let things cool down because I wanted to make sure my words are loud and clear and not mistaken. 

I’ve made a mistake and I lied and a am fully aware of my actions. I want to first apologize to the Korean community on this form. I don’t want to be Korean and I did do this ignorantly and I shouldn’t have lied and pretended to be Korean. The thing Is I am proud in who I am just like you are. I just may not always be the most confident person in the world, but pretending to be you was the most ignorant and disrespectful thing that I have done. I sincerely apologize for my actions. 

I should have never done that and I should have never tried to be something that I’m not. You don’t deserve to have your ethnicity looked as a means of popularity and as someone whom is black I should have known better. I am sorry for that, and I know this apology will never mean anything or never be enough with pain I might have cause you and the issues you face to day. My ignorance was beyond disgusting and I’m so ashamed of my self for that. I do apologize again, and I never meant to make you guys angry. I never want to ever make people angry with me. 

I would like to apologize to the friends that I’ve made and become really close with. I am so sorry to you. I should have never made you guys feel close to me and someone you can talk to when I was to ignorant to be myself with you all. I am extremely sorry for everything that I put you through.

I should have never made you feel that way and I should have never lied to you in the first place. I made you all upset and angry and you have every right to be. I was some one you all considered a close friend and someone you can come to about anything. I apologize for making you all feel that way. 

I should have never done that to you all. Pretending to be something I’m not is never worth losing friendships and people you care about. It was never worth it. I should have known better and I should have just been honest with you. 

I will never be able to forgive myself for putting you all through this. I will never be able to forgive myself for lying over something like this, and Its 100% understandable if you never forgive me either. I don’t want to ever hurt anyone like this again, and I really feel disgusted with myself.

Everyone I have encountered deserves a sincere and real apology none of you deserve any of the lies that I’ve told none of you deserve to feel this way. I caused so much commotion and hurt and I’m a terrible person for everything I put you all through.

I was ignorant enough to lead you all to believe that I was something that I was not. I should have been a bigger person and grew up just telling the honest truth. It’s never worth losing people you care about. Its never worth hurt a community of people that deal with pain everyday. It is never worth it. I am so sorry.

I don’t want you all to think that my last apology was all I had to say. I wanted to wait to clear my brain and give real words of an apology. To some I may have done something completely unforgivable and thats understandable. I lied to you about who I was when you trusted me the most. I can’t even forgive myself in this moment so I don’t see how you could forgive me.

I am sorry for all the people that trusted me and believed in me to only find out that I’ve lied to you. I am so sorry for those that followed me and though I was someone they could trust and all I did was lie about who I was to you.

A person should never lie in order to have acceptance. I understand that and I knew that but I was to damn ignorant and to damn immature to understand that. I used this platform to express my emotions just like everyone else but only I coated it with a face of a lie, and I’m so sorry for that.

I really am. I don’t know how to deal with this or what else to do but be honest from here on out and be who I am. I should have never allowed this to happen and I shouldn’t have ever thought this all was okay. I should have known better. I never had problems making friends but I allowed myself to think it was by creating a fake and bullshit life just to get acceptance, and as a person that is older in age and should be more mature I should have known better.

I am sorry for everything. I am sorry to each and every one of you and to those that are also doing what I am doing and pretending to be something they aren’t understand its never worth it. It never will be worth it. You need to tell the truth even if that means losing people you care about.

Having friends and a huge following is never worth hurting a community of people and losing friends and having people follow you blindly for  lie. People will love you for you. Not for who you pretend to be.

So again. To everyone that I effected I want to apologize too. Everything and everyone deserves a real one. Although this apology will never mean enough and never will fix the friendship and the people I’ve lost I just needed to make this because its important to know that I am sorry and beyond sorry. 

Even if you never see me the same way again and never want to speak to me again. That’s okay. I understand. I’m sorry.

[foreverexodus-blog]

To add. I never meant to speak over actual Koreans. I am so sorry for that. I never wanted to make you feel like your voice didn’t matter and I know I hurt you I am sorry. I never wanted to speak over you. I never meant to do that. I never wanted my opinions to matter more then yours. I am 100% sorry and extremely ignorant for that.

That’s something I can’t be forgiven for. I should have never pushed your voice out the way so you couldn’t have yours heard. I’m sorry for everything that I’ve caused you. I’m sorry for doing that to you. I didn’t mean to cause this to happen and I’m so sorry for that.

I never wanted to have that position and I should have never taken it. I should have never put up Korean Lessons when I am not Korean and I should have never spoken on Korean issues. I am so sorry for that. I don’t know how else to be sincere to you. I’ve made a terrible mistake and I know its unforgivable but I am apologizing for everything I’ve put you through or made you feel.

I’m a horrible person and I am extremely aware of that and my mistakes. Again I’m completely sorry for pretending to be Korean. I am sorry for doing all this to you. I am sorry for everything.

[Beautiful Disaster]

Dear Everyone,

I wanted to wait a day or so to give a better apology. I wanted to collect my thoughts and try and let things cool down because I wanted to make sure my words are loud and clear and not mistaken. 

I’ve made a mistake and I lied and a am fully aware of my actions. I want to first apologize to the Korean community on this form. I don’t want to be Korean and I did do this ignorantly and I shouldn’t have lied and pretended to be Korean. The thing Is I am proud in who I am just like you are. I just may not always be the most confident person in the world, but pretending to be you was the most ignorant and disrespectful thing that I have done. I sincerely apologize for my actions. 

I should have never done that and I should have never tried to be something that I’m not. You don’t deserve to have your ethnicity looked as a means of popularity and as someone whom is black I should have known better. I am sorry for that, and I know this apology will never mean anything or never be enough with pain I might have cause you and the issues you face to day. My ignorance was beyond disgusting and I’m so ashamed of my self for that. I do apologize again, and I never meant to make you guys angry. I never want to ever make people angry with me. 

I would like to apologize to the friends that I’ve made and become really close with. I am so sorry to you. I should have never made you guys feel close to me and someone you can talk to when I was to ignorant to be myself with you all. I am extremely sorry for everything that I put you through.

I should have never made you feel that way and I should have never lied to you in the first place. I made you all upset and angry and you have every right to be. I was some one you all considered a close friend and someone you can come to about anything. I apologize for making you all feel that way. 

I should have never done that to you all. Pretending to be something I’m not is never worth losing friendships and people you care about. It was never worth it. I should have known better and I should have just been honest with you. 

I will never be able to forgive myself for putting you all through this. I will never be able to forgive myself for lying over something like this, and Its 100% understandable if you never forgive me either. I don’t want to ever hurt anyone like this again, and I really feel disgusted with myself.

Everyone I have encountered deserves a sincere and real apology none of you deserve any of the lies that I’ve told none of you deserve to feel this way. I caused so much commotion and hurt and I’m a terrible person for everything I put you all through.

I was ignorant enough to lead you all to believe that I was something that I was not. I should have been a bigger person and grew up just telling the honest truth. It’s never worth losing people you care about. Its never worth hurt a community of people that deal with pain everyday. It is never worth it. I am so sorry.

I don’t want you all to think that my last apology was all I had to say. I wanted to wait to clear my brain and give real words of an apology. To some I may have done something completely unforgivable and thats understandable. I lied to you about who I was when you trusted me the most. I can’t even forgive myself in this moment so I don’t see how you could forgive me.

I am sorry for all the people that trusted me and believed in me to only find out that I’ve lied to you. I am so sorry for those that followed me and though I was someone they could trust and all I did was lie about who I was to you.

A person should never lie in order to have acceptance. I understand that and I knew that but I was to damn ignorant and to damn immature to understand that. I used this platform to express my emotions just like everyone else but only I coated it with a face of a lie, and I’m so sorry for that.

I really am. I don’t know how to deal with this or what else to do but be honest from here on out and be who I am. I should have never allowed this to happen and I shouldn’t have ever thought this all was okay. I should have known better. I never had problems making friends but I allowed myself to think it was by creating a fake and bullshit life just to get acceptance, and as a person that is older in age and should be more mature I should have known better.

I am sorry for everything. I am sorry to each and every one of you and to those that are also doing what I am doing and pretending to be something they aren’t understand its never worth it. It never will be worth it. You need to tell the truth even if that means losing people you care about.

Having friends and a huge following is never worth hurting a community of people and losing friends and having people follow you blindly for  lie. People will love you for you. Not for who you pretend to be.

So again. To everyone that I effected I want to apologize too. Everything and everyone deserves a real one. Although this apology will never mean enough and never will fix the friendship and the people I’ve lost I just needed to make this because its important to know that I am sorry and beyond sorry. 

Even if you never see me the same way again and never want to speak to me again. That’s okay. I understand. I’m sorry.

[Beautiful Disaster]

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[Beautiful Disaster]

[acidwatermelon]

those hot muscles!  (╯°□°)╯

[Beautiful Disaster]

[cheonsaseoul]

I’m sorry to everyone for lying to you guys. I should have never lied and I understand you all will never forgive me. That’s okay and I’ll live with that. That doesn’t change the things I said when we did talk was sincere, but Its fine now because I effected all of you with a dumbass lie that I should have never told. After receiving hate over and over today I now want to say I am sorry and wont bother you all anymore. Thanks for at least talking to me when you guys did. You don’t have to talk with me anymore if you don’t want to. I messed up everything and I deserve this. Sorry. If you want to ask me questions you can privately 

[mysterygirln]

cheonsaseoul ….im…im so disappointed in you right now. I thought you were so cool and admired you for your posts and that we could be friends…. Im just so shocked I cant believe you would do this. I admired you for your strong politically opinionated personality, not for your race. Why would you do this? chanyeolandstuff kailaystan

[foreverexodus-blog]

I did it because I wanted people to like me. Not because I wanted to be Korean I want to make that clear. I just felt people would like me more for that and I know thats rather immature of me and I shouldn’t have lied but when I told people they seemed more interested in talking to me. That’s all. I never did it for anything else. I am a liar and I know that. I shouldn’t have lied about my race. I’m not ashamed of my race it just seemed people wanted to be my friend more. I’m sorry for thinking so ignorantly 

[Beautiful Disaster]

I’m sorry to everyone for lying to you guys. I should have never lied and I understand you all will never forgive me. That’s okay and I’ll live with that. That doesn’t change the things I said when we did talk was sincere, but Its fine now because I effected all of you with a dumbass lie that I should have never told. After receiving hate over and over today I now want to say I am sorry and wont bother you all anymore. Thanks for at least talking to me when you guys did. You don’t have to talk with me anymore if you don’t want to. I messed up everything and I deserve this. Sorry. If you want to ask me questions you can privately 

[Beautiful Disaster]

[myrandomboyfriends]

Yoo Seung Woo’s comeback MV to feature MONSTA X’s Kihyun, G-Friend’s Eunha, and Boyfriend’s Jeongmin!

Not that we need any more reason to look forward to his comeback, but Yoo Seung Woo has recruited his fellow idols to take part in his MV for “Pretty”!

Starship Entertainment stated, “The main characters in Yoo Seung Woo’s third single album ’Beautiful’s title track have been revealed! You’ll be able to see [Yoo] Seung Woo, [G-Friend’s] Eunha, [MONSTA X’s] Kihyun, and [Boyfriend’s] Jeongmin.”

The company added, “Yoo Seung Woo’s MV will be a coming of age story including the fluttering and fresh feelings of youth, filled with passion. Please look forward to it.”

It looks like his MV won’t be a typical MV with just shots of him singing, but feature a beautiful story involving these four!

His single album ‘Beautiful’ is the work of Kim Do Hoon, Kim Yi Na, Goo Reum Yi and of course Yoo Seung Woo himself, so we can’t wait to hear what it sounds like.

Stay tuned for his comeback on July 29!

cr: allkpop

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